Test

There are some situations that I experience in life where I know God is testing me. It seems as though He lets certain things happen in attempt to test my fidelity to Him. God not only does that towards me, but he does that to everyone that proclaims to be a christian and a devout follower of Jesus Christ. Shelt asked me if I am ready to be famous, I told him "sure am". Then he broke it down what all came with being famous and very influential. He let me know that Jesus was famous too. He had the people that completely loved and adored him, and there was also those who would go the distance to see him fall. And if they did it to Jesus, they will do it to me.

After that being said, I had told Shelt I understood what came with it and that God knows who He will be putting to the forefront. I told him that I have a responsibility in the kingdom and that I am ready. Even though I was talking to Shelt, I know God heard me. And just to see if I am ready for all the good and the bad sides of being popular, I believe he is sending me through some test.

One thing I am learning is that through everything we experience in life, we can always count on the Lord. Everyone is not going to like you for some reason or another, but its cool. People who you thought would stick with you through it all may leave you. You still have Jesus. People might lie on you to make you look bad. You still have Jesus. God will let these things happen to you to test and see how well you understand that He is always with you and you have nothing to worry about.

If you are going through some things right now. Remember that God is always with you. No matter what it is. Yes God gives us BFF so that we can have a sort of companionship on Earth, but at the end of the day, he is with us, closer than any lover or friend. Just know that if you proclaim that you are ready to be a soldier in the army of the Lord, test will come. Ask Abraham. He was commanded to kill his son to prove his devotion to God...

Genesis 22:10-13

^{9 -10} They arrived at the place to which God had directed him. Abraham built an altar. He laid out the wood. Then he tied up Isaac and laid him on the wood. Abraham reached out and took the knife to kill his son.

¹¹ Just then an angel of God called to him out of Heaven, "Abraham! Abraham!"

"Yes, I'm listening."

¹² "Don't lay a hand on that boy! Don't touch him! Now I know how fearlessly you fear God; you didn't hesitate to place your son, your dear son, on the altar for me."

¹³ Abraham looked up. He saw a ram caught by its horns in the thicket. Abraham took the ram and sacrificed it as a burnt offering instead of his son.

Until Next time...

These are my Confesstions

I was looking back over the many blogs I have written for Jesus Cousin and I have found that I have done a lot of confessing. I have mentioned things about my life that would never come up in a normal conversation. And though I have mentioned very personal things, admitting and sharing my stories have been therapy for me. It has help me face many situations in my life that I wanted to just go away. Truth is, things that you do not face head up do not go away. They linger. They haunt you. God allows you to experience certain things to to teach you a lesson and to make you stronger.

I encounter many people who have things in their past they do not want to talk about. What people do not realize is by not learning from mistakes or addressing your past it could be hindering from being happy and moving on. One thing recently I had to do was explore a time in my past where I was in an abusive relationship. It was a time in my life that I felt lower than low. After I got out of the situation, I tried to ignore and even deny it ever happen. The more I tried to bury it, the more it would effect my life. It effected my interaction with men, it made me want to drink excessively, it turned me into an anti-social person. All this in an attempt to forget about it. What I realized I had to do was face it. I had to talk about it to make it real that it happened. I had to forgive not only him, but forgive myself as well. Then I had to learn from it. Next thing was to tell someone else what I went through to help them in their walk.

Holding on to things can and will effect your relationship with the Lord. That is something that you do not want to happen. I encourage you to begin confessing and talking to God about the things you are trying to cover up in your life. He knows all about it already. Acknowledge your past and use it as a way to become stronger.

Leviticus 26
40 If they shall confess their iniquity, and the iniquity of their fathers, with their trespass which they trespassed against me, and that also they have walked contrary unto me;
41 And that I also have walked contrary unto them, and have brought them into the land of their enemies; if then their uncircumcised hearts be humbled, and they then accept of the punishment of their iniquity:
42 Then will I remember my covenant with Jacob, and also my covenant with Isaac, and also my covenant with Abraham will I remember; and I will remember the land.

Until Next time...

My BFF

My BFF is Shelton. I've had a few close friends in my day, but I have never had a friend like him. After reading my studies today, it made me realize how good of a friend he really is and how I should cherish the friendship. In my line of work, I come across a lot of people who will put on the mask of friend to either get close to me or get something from me. As long as I have known Shelt, he has never been the type to want to take advantage of me and for that I thank God.

The Bible tells us that we are to love and respect our friends. They tell us the truth in love. They have seen all sides of us and know our true situation. They stand beside us when things are not going so well and they shine with us when things are going well. Many times people like to listen to by standers over friends. Mainly because bystanders will tell you what you wanna hear. Growing up, I moved around A LOT so I really didn't have the opportunity to make friends. Because of that, when I did make friends I wasn't all that sure how to be a good friend to someone else.

The best example of a friend is Jesus. It is important that we have a relationship with Christ. He can do things physical friends can do. Jesus did not let anything happen to his disciples during his time on earth. He spent his whole life being a friend. Which brings up a good question. What kind of friend are you? Remember, in order to be the ultimate best friend, you have to know the word of God. Honestly and devotion are very important in friendships. And though a friendship is great to have amongst ourselves, it is better to be a friend to God like Abraham.

James 2:23-24: 23 And the scripture was fulfilled which saith, Abraham believed God, and it was imputed unto him for righteousness: and he was called the Friend of God.24 Ye see then how that by works a man is justified, and not by faith only.

Take some time out and examine your friendships. Let your friend know you appreciate them. If you have not been a good friend, study the word and see what you need to do about changing. Until next time...

Jealousy

Society has coined a term that we are all familiar with to describe a jealous person..."Hater". The term is used very loosely these days but the Bible goes into detail describing "haters" and what type of lifestyle they live. I remember having a roommate during my time in college. (Since I'm so past that situation I can talk about it). She was the best on the track team and she knew it. Yet, she wasn't boastful about it or threw it in anyone's face, but I "hated" the fact she got sooooo much attention and special treatment. So jealousy rose up in me. I didn't say anything though, but it festered for months. Finally, I just snapped over something as small as debating over a date a test was on. (We had a class together). It had got to the point I could not stand to hear her speak. I actually tried to fight her.

I was so busy "hating" on her, I could not even get my own stuff in order. Hind site I see that jealousy and envy is a waste of time and energy. It is also damaging to your health. The energy it takes to hate on someone goes into creating stress. Stress is one of the leading causes of death. It is very important that we be happy for our fellow man. God has what he wants you to do, and he also has something he wants your neighbor to do. Trust me, you never know what someone else is going through. The grass is always greener on the other side of the fence.

Proverbs 27:3-4:
3 Stone is heavy and sand weighty, but a fool's (unreasoning) wrath is heavier and more intolerable than both of them.
4 Wrath is cruel and anger is an overwhelming flood, but who is able to stand before jealousy?

If you are jealous of someone right now, let it go. Congratulate them on their achievements and keep it moving. Or do the Christian thing, assist them in doing better. Let God use you and don't ruin your witness by turning your nose up at someone who is "doing better than you". DONT BE A HATER!

Until next time...

Bragging

Bragging is never cute or amusing. I find that I am drawn towards humble spirits rather than people who are loud and continually boasting about things they have done or what they are doing. In the industry I am in, boasting and bragging is encouraged. However, I find that the more I refrain from self proclaiming or praising my self, the more people want to be around me. People that praise themselves view them selves as gods, and I do not do that. I know there is one true living God. He is the only one that will get my praises.

Being that we know these people exist, how are we suppose to deal with them. The Bible gives us special instructions on how do deal with those who think they are soooo above us all.

Colossians 3:12-17

^{12 -14}So, chosen by God for this new life of love, dress in the wardrobe God picked out for you: compassion, kindness, humility, quiet strength, discipline. Be even-tempered, content with second place, quick to forgive an offense. Forgive as quickly and completely as the Master forgave you. And regardless of what else you put on, wear love. It's your basic, all-purpose garment. Never be without it.

^{15 -17}Let the peace of Christ keep you in tune with each other, in step with each other. None of this going off and doing your own thing. And cultivate thankfulness. Let the Word of Christ—the Message—have the run of the house. Give it plenty of room in your lives. Instruct and direct one another using good common sense. And sing, sing your hearts out to God! Let every detail in your lives—words, actions, whatever—be done in the name of the Master, Jesus, thanking God the Father every step of the way.

So in other words, forgive them for what they have done or for what they are doing. We have to love them anyway. We have to understand that we have to be examples ourselves. We must not over react to the situation, rather just be easy and let the Lord deal with it all. I was raised in a humble home. I would not sit here and lie to you and say we were a poor family, far from actually. But my parents both came from humble beginings and taugh us that everyone does not "have it like this". Everything that happens to us/you need to be considered as a blessing and it is only right to give thanks and credit where it is due. Untill Next time....

Relationships

I read many blogs about "Why women don't want good men" and "Why men treat women like dirt" and so on and so on. Everyone seems to have their own answers about "bad men" and "bad women". Out of all the entries I read, no one ever considers the fact that their relationship with Christ not only effects their own lives, but it effects their actions when in relationships. I see my parents who have been together for 27 years, they are willing to be the first to tell you that God is the foundation of their lives and their relationships. Perhaps if more couples allow Christ into their relationship, there would be less break ups and a lower divorce rate.

I can only speak as an unmarried woman. My main goal is to serve God first. I pray daily that he molds me into a productive citizen, a strong soldier in the army of the Lord, and a good woman for a good man. I believe the number one issue with failed relationships is the two partners are not equally yoked. Equally yoked means the two of you are on the same playing field. Couples need to have things in common and one of the main things to have in common is God.

Another important fact to consider is that couple these days disrespect the sanctity of sex. I found a scripture that may open many eyes.

1Cor
^{16 -20}There's more to sex than mere skin on skin. Sex is as much spiritual mystery as physical fact. As written in Scripture, "The two become one." Since we want to become spiritually one with the Master, we must not pursue the kind of sex that avoids commitment and intimacy, leaving us more lonely than ever—the kind of sex that can never "become one." There is a sense in which sexual sins are different from all others. In sexual sin we violate the sacredness of our own bodies, these bodies that were made for God-given and God-modeled love, for "becoming one" with another. Or didn't you realize that your body is a sacred place, the place of the Holy Spirit? Don't you see that you can't live however you please, squandering what God paid such a high price for? The physical part of you is not some piece of property belonging to the spiritual part of you. God owns the whole works. So let people see God in and through your body.

My main suggestion is to stop worrying about being in a relationship with a man/woman and focus more on the relationship with Christ. If you are not right in Christ, you wont be all that together in other relationships. Until next time...

When Satan Attacks

One thing I am finding on my rise to the top is Satan's constant attempts to pull me back down. Its not in areas I would expect him to be. He's going in for areas that near and dear to me and throwing in all kinds of distractions. However, when I finally gave my whole life over to the Lord, I asked Him to please help me to see if a situation is right and if a situation is wrong. Ask and you shall receive. So even when Satan attempts to attack me in places in my life that would really effect me, I am able to recognize his doings and rebuke him in the name of Jesus.

Its important that you are able to see who from who and what from what. Satan is crafty and able to disguise his self to slither his way into your life and into situations that you would never expect him to be in. It is a constant battle and in order to stay on your toes, you have to be protected by the word of God. In wars, the enemy never calls you up and tells you where they are going to attack next. The only thing you can do is wait and be prepared for anything. In order to be prepared, you have to study the word of God and practice the commandments listed.

This morning I was reading about fake people and how their words do not match their hearts.

Proverbs 26:24-26
^{24 -26} Your enemy shakes hands and greets you like an old friend,
all the while conniving against you. When he speaks warmly to you, don't believe him for a minute;
he's just waiting for the chance to rip you off. No matter how cunningly he conceals his malice,
eventually his evil will be exposed in public.

Be aware of those around you. Not everyone means you good. I will restate this, study you Bible. It is there to help you recognize Satan and be able to stand in the spiritual battle of your life. Until next time...

Saved

Some people believe that they are Christians off the pure strength of their parents and their up bringing. To clarify what I mean, some people have never excepted Jesus Christ for themselves but believe because they have grown up in the church or they have Christian parents, or because they go to church every Sunday they are saved. This is not true. Your relationship with Jesus has to be personal. One person's salvation cannot be considered good for three other people. The Bible considers you a hypocrite if your words and your heart does not match.
I have an uncle who is a great person. He will help you at all times and will give you the shirt off his back. He is a model citizen and causes no trouble. He is just an all around great person. Unfortunately, it saddens me because he refuses to go to church and gives his life to Christ. He lives a christian lives a Christian life style but will not profess Jesus as his Lord and Savior. I pray for him daily, but I know he is set in his ways and believes he can get into heaven off his good deeds. That is not true.
Matthew 23:27-28:
^{27 -28}"You're hopeless, you religion scholars and Pharisees! Frauds! You're like manicured grave plots, grass clipped and the flowers bright, but six feet down it's all rotting bones and worm-eaten flesh. People look at you and think you're saints, but beneath the skin you're total frauds.

The last thing you want is to be considered a fraud in God's eyes. Many people don't know or do not understand that they cannot get into heaven off "mama's prayers". If you are this person, or know someone like this it is important that it is understood that you must have your own relationship with God. There is no other way. Salvation is FREE, get yours today. The price was paid along time ago so take advantage of the opportunity.

Until Next Time

What are Your Gifts?

All of my studies lately have been centered around the power of words. This is important in my walk because I feel like God is going to put me in a place where I can influence masses of people through song, books, and television. This is definitely a large task, however I look at it as an honor. My walk with the Lord has been preparing me for this and I can't say I am honestly ready to be in the lime light, but I can say I am working hard to make sure I don't mess up my task at hand. Do you know what it is you are suppose to be doing in the kingdom. Have you started your preparation? If not, what are you waiting for?

God blesses us all with gifts. If you are not sure what the gift of the spirit are... here goes:

1 Corinthians 12

Spiritual Gifts

^{1 -3} What I want to talk about now is the various ways God's Spirit gets worked into our lives. This is complex and often mis-understood, but I want you to be informed and knowledgeable. Remember how you were when you didn't know God, led from one phony god to another, never knowing what you were doing, just doing it because everybody else did it? It's different in this life. God wants us to use our intelligence, to seek to understand as well as we can. For instance, by using your heads, you know perfectly well that the Spirit of God would never prompt anyone to say "Jesus be damned!" Nor would anyone be inclined to say "Jesus is Master!" without the insight of the Holy Spirit.

^{4 -11}God's various gifts are handed out everywhere; but they all originate in God's Spirit. God's various ministries are carried out everywhere; but they all originate in God's Spirit. God's various expressions of power are in action everywhere; but God himself is behind it all. Each person is given something to do that shows who God is: Everyone gets in on it, everyone benefits. All kinds of things are handed out by the Spirit, and to all kinds of people! The variety is wonderful:

wise counsel

clear understanding

simple trust

healing the sick

miraculous acts

proclamation

distinguishing between spirits

tongues

interpretation of tongues.

All these gifts have a common origin, but are handed out one by one by the one Spirit of God. He decides who gets what, and when.

It is important to know your role in the kingdom. Your job is to win more souls to Christ and you are to use your gifts to do so. Many times gifts and talents get mixed up. My gift is proclamation, my talents are rapping, speaking, and writing. If you are having trouble finding out what your gifts are I provided a link below.

Really, all I am saying today is to make sure you are furthering God's kingdom. He gives you abilities and means to do so. Do not waste what He gives you because he will give them to someone else.

Do you want to find out what your gifts are click below:
http://www2.elca.org/evangelizingchurch/assessments/spiritgifts.html

Until Next time...

Power

Many people are in denial about the power they have through Jesus Christ. There are so many people stuck in the continuous cycle of self doubt and low self esteem that its hard for them to notice there is a way to rise above pain, defeat, and failure. Personally, I grew up in the church so I always knew about a man named Jesus however, some of us don't know him. Then there are some of us who know about Him, but do not understand what He can do for us. I find it hard to understand why its so hard to follow and trust in a man that came to this earth, died for me, and rose again. Anyone who can pull that off has my attention, the healing and miracles He performed was the deal sealer.

Through Jesus we have power over Satan. These days people measure power in terms of how much money you have, what position you hold at your job or in your organization. Some people think seniority gives them power or perhaps material processions. Well, I hate to burst any bubbles, but those things can't get you into heaven or hell. Jesus is the way and we are specifically told this. We cannot get to heaven unless we go through Jesus Christ.

When you seek Jesus, all things become possible for you. We are even given power over Satan through Jesus. To have power over Satan is a big thing because he and his other demons are allowed to roam the earth. And their efforts to win souls are just as strong as Jesus'. My word today is if you do not have Jesus in your life the way He should be, seek Him. Watch how things will begin to fall in line and everything starts working in your favor. I am a witness that things start going right when you put the Lord first.

Revelation 1:18: I am he that liveth, and was dead; and, behold, I am alive for evermore, Amen; and have the keys of hell and of death.

Until Next Time....

Praise Report!

Today is a praise report. I promise the last two months have been crazy. I had to be obedient to God and what he wanted me to do. It felt like I was being punished for doing the right thing. In all actuality I had to go through the fire to come out refined. I am happy to say that I woke up this morning with a dance in my feet, a song in my heart, and a wave in my hand. I just feel good. Have you ever just felt good!
I ran track from 6th grade all the way through college. In my whole track career I have celebrated 14 championships. It feels great to get rewarded after the long hard practices, after the brutal wear and tear you put your body through, the studying, the early mornings, the long trips, everything you put your hard work into to finally be rewarded. Its a feeling that can't really be described. I feel like that right now. I turned my life over to God, and even though an outsider looking in my say, you haven't achieved anything or won any awards, I would challenge that thought. I have achieved a peace of mind. I have a peace in my life that everything is going to be okay. I can see clearly. For some that is not important, but for me, I need it.

Oh give thanks to the Lord; call upon his name;
make known his deeds among the peoples!
Sing to him, sing praises to him;
tell of all his wondrous works! —Psalm 105:1-2

Until Next Time!

I'm Just Tired

Have you ever woke up just totally exhausted? Have you ever felt like you are just tired and really can't go on? It is the kind of tired that rest and relaxation will not get rid of. Its certain situations and circumstances that has you beat up and near lifeless. You actually are walking in the will of God, but Satan just beats up on you daily and all you can do is sigh and search for strength. If this is you, then welcome to the boat I float around in.
Mental drain is one of the worse types of exhaustion. This is because your mind is really important in making you push on. That why it is written "Keep your MIND stayed on Jesus". Your mind makes everything else work. The saying is true "Mind of Matter". Many times, Satan will attack our minds first. That is one of the most powerful weapons we have (other than our Bible). The mind is the central location of decision making, word formation, its where the ability to decide takes place. Your mind is very important. So when your mind is under attack, the exhaustion and the self doubt comes into play.
Just like you exercise your body to maintain fitness and you eat right to maintain your health, the same treatment must go into keeping your mind right. You have to continue to study the word of God, read encouraging books, surround your self with encouraging people. Set up defenses around your life to make it harder for Satan to get to you.

Isa. ^{27 -31}Why would you ever complain, O Jacob,
or, whine, Israel, saying, "God has lost track of me.
He doesn't care what happens to me"? Don't you know anything? Haven't you been listening? God doesn't come and go. God lasts.
He's Creator of all you can see or imagine. He doesn't get tired out, doesn't pause to catch his breath.
And he knows everything, inside and out. He energizes those who get tired,
gives fresh strength to dropouts. For even young people tire and drop out,
young folk in their prime stumble and fall. But those who wait upon God get fresh strength.
They spread their wings and soar like eagles, They run and don't get tired,
they walk and don't lag behind.

Remember we all get tired. We can find our strength however in the Lord. Keep going! Until next time...

Lord Why Me?

I kinda chuckle to myself when I hear people complaining about their situation as if they did not put them selves there. When everything is going good, then its "I did this" and "I did that". Then things go wrong, the cry goes out "Lord why me?" The real question is "why not you". What have you done to be awarded God's graces and mercy. Did you tithe? Maybe you went to feed the hungry at some point this week? Did you study the word? Are walking in the will of God at all? If you can't say yes to any of those questions then you can answer your own question to "Lord why me".
So often we forget to uphold our end of the deal. God's main request is for us to be obedient to his commandments. I'm not going to sit here and pretend that being obedient to God is so easy. It takes effort for me. However, in the end, I'm showing God that I want to walk in the light. I want to follow Him. And because of this, I will be blessed for it. I encourage you to step your efforts up in walking in the will of God. Life could be so much easier. Put your self in the Lord's shoes. Very rarely to you want to help someone who doesn't want to help them selves. Why is this? Firstly, all that help will be in vain. Secondly, they will take all the credit for what you have done for them. Thirdly, they will most likely go back to doing whatever you was trying to help them with in the first place. God feels the same way.
If you follow my blog, back in August, I had that same attitude, "Lord why me". I had to learn that God had to take me through some things to appreciate Him more. I needed to go through to become stronger in my faith and be more prepared for what He has in store for me. Some may say "I am doing what God ask of me and I am still going through". No one is exempt from hard times. It is a test so that you will have a testimony and be able to win more souls to Christ when you tell what you have been through.
Matthew 8:22 (Whole Chapter)
Jesus refused. "First things first. Your business is life, not death. Follow me. Pursue life."


Next time you cry out "Lord why me", examine your life and your walk. Make sure you are following the Lord and doing everything that He would have you to do. If you are, remain faithful and diligent in the Lord. He will bless your life. Until next time...

Moving On...

WOW God is truly blessing! I woke up this morning with mind on Jesus. I always heard the deacons sing the song, and I'd sing along. But never could I really get into like they were. But this morning and the past few mornings, I woke up thinking about God and all that He doing in my life. I use to wake up and look at the ceiling thinking about everything "I" had to do for the day. Yet, this morning, all I could think about was "what would you have me to do next Lord. How can I serve you today?" This shows how far I have really come.
There was apart of my life that I just would not let go of during my transformation. There was a friend of mine that I wanted to keep around me forever...and I knew God was telling me to let that friend go right now. I just couldn't. I enjoyed this person's company, however this person was that link to everything I was doing wrong in life. Everyday God would tell me to let this person go. I thought if I shared my beliefs and maybe share the goodness of the Lord then this person would transform and be like me.
I could see that things were begining to line up for me, but I was still straddling the fence and being stubborn and would not let go. So, God did what he had to do. If I wasn't going to let this person go, then He would do it for me. So yesterday I recieve a call from my friend saying they wont be talking to me anymore. Just like that..."I wont be calling or hanging out with you anymore..."
I wasn't sure how to respond. My words were limited. I knew what it was. I didn't fight it, I really just said, "OK". It was a relief. I hate it happen that way, but it did. Sometimes God will step in and do what He has been telling you to do.

Philippians 3
17 -19Stick with me, friends. Keep track of those you see running this same course, headed for this same goal. There are many out there taking other paths, choosing other goals, and trying to get you to go along with them. I've warned you of them many times; sadly, I'm having to do it again. All they want is easy street. They hate Christ's Cross. But easy street is a dead-end street. Those who live there make their bellies their gods; belches are their praise; all they can think of is their appetites.

So when I woke up this morning, I felt like everything required of me up to this point has been fulfilled (with a little help lol). What next Lord?
Until Next time...

Be Ready

I learned that being without the protection of God is like a country with no type of military. At any time another country can come and overtake it because it has no line of defense. If you watch the news there are always larger countries preying on smaller countries waiting for the opportunity to run them over and take over their land. Well, its the same for those with out God.
Satan waits in the mist for opportunities to overtake us. However, some of us are easier targets than others. There are a lot of people who believe they are self made and have advanced through life on their own. These people we later hear about struggling and in bad situations. How quickly they realize lawyers or court systems cannot help you. Prime example, victims of the Madoff scandal.
Don't go through life unprotected. Make sure you put on your full armor of God and be ready for battle. When I say battle, I mean a spiritual battle, Resist the temptation of the devil and be ready. Take being a soldier in the army of the Lord literal. Attacks will be made on your life and you need to be ready for that.
What is your protection?

Eph 6:10-18
^{10 -12}And that about wraps it up. God is strong, and he wants you strong. So take everything the Master has set out for you, well-made weapons of the best materials. And put them to use so you will be able to stand up to everything the Devil throws your way. This is no afternoon athletic contest that we'll walk away from and forget about in a couple of hours. This is for keeps, a life-or-death fight to the finish against the Devil and all his angels.

^{13 -18}Be prepared. You're up against far more than you can handle on your own. Take all the help you can get, every weapon God has issued, so that when it's all over but the shouting you'll still be on your feet. Truth, righteousness, peace, faith, and salvation are more than words. Learn how to apply them. You'll need them throughout your life. God's Word is an indispensable weapon. In the same way, prayer is essential in this ongoing warfare. Pray hard and long. Pray for your brothers and sisters. Keep your eyes open. Keep each other's spirits up so that no one falls behind or drops out.

Until next time...

Missed Opportunity

I wanna start by saying nothing about my life is perfect. Many people use my last statement to cover up something they have done. In all actuality, I wish that would help me right now. Unfortunately, I feel as though I am so in the wrong for something I did yesterday. The devil chooses to come at you in different ways. Most of the time he will not come at you the way you expect him too. I have been on my A game trying to make sure I do not fall short of the glory of God, but yesterday I completely lost my mind and went in on someone or a situation rather I should have simply backed down from.
To avoid giving a detailed version, I will simply skip to the chase. I saw a comment posted about me on facebook. If you keep up with my blogs you would know that about two months ago I decided to leave a group that I had been hanging with in order to be obedient to God and what He had set up for my life. Since I left the group, I have heard mean things said about me and rumors started. I have been able to maintain my cool and ignore it. I never make reference to it. Yet, after seeing the comment, I was pushed over the edge. It was posted on facebook for all to see, so I posted a message back to the individual. I knew he was talking about me even though he decided not to use names. But in my comment back, I made it clear how I felt about him. He went on to deny he was talking about me and erased everything he said about me in an attempt to make me look crazy. Things really hit the fan when I read his statement about exploring the option of the muslim faith.
I handled that whole situation wrong. Here I am trying to change my life and be an example and all I did was give in to Satan's attempt to make me look bad. I am embarrassed and have prayed for forgiveness. I tell you all this because you can never give Satan a chance to ruin your witness. I may never be able to correct that situation with that individual. If he was talking about me, it was only words, nothing I couldn't have shrugged off. My words could have been kind and perhaps he would want to explore Christianity instead. I let the comment get the best of me.

Proverbs 25:26 (AMP): Like a muddied fountain and a polluted spring is a righteous man who yields, falls down, and compromises his integrity before the wicked.


This verse tells us that a righteous man who compromises his integrity is like a muddied fountain. Its nasty and useless. I do not want to be useless. I am happy I was able to experience this. I needed to see the era in my ways. In my field, people are going to talk about me in great deal. I need to learn how to just stand up and let God shine through me. Until next time...

Discriminating Witnessing

Today in my morning study I read about a Jesus and the Samaritan woman at the well. If anyone knows the background on this type of relationship, one would know that is was not proper for Jesus to talk to a woman let alone a Samaritan woman in public. Jesus witness to this woman regardless of what the rules said or what society said about the relationship between him and her. This brings about a good question. Why do we as Christian discriminate on who you witness to?

So many times I find that the church will only go out into the lower income communities to witness when there are some other upscale communities that need salvation as well. So many times people would rather speak to the homeless man about Christ rather than talk to the man in a three peice suit about the Lord. Why is this? Really, we do not know anyone's situation. We learned from Jesus to never judge a book by its cover.

John 4:7-15:
7 -8A woman, a Samaritan, came to draw water. Jesus said, "Would you give me a drink of water?" (His disciples had gone to the village to buy food for lunch.)

9The Samaritan woman, taken aback, asked, "How come you, a Jew, are asking me, a Samaritan woman, for a drink?" (Jews in those days wouldn't be caught dead talking to Samaritans.)

10Jesus answered, "If you knew the generosity of God and who I am, you would be asking me for a drink, and I would give you fresh, living water."

11 -12The woman said, "Sir, you don't even have a bucket to draw with, and this well is deep. So how are you going to get this 'living water'? Are you a better man than our ancestor Jacob, who dug this well and drank from it, he and his sons and livestock, and passed it down to us?"

13 -14Jesus said, "Everyone who drinks this water will get thirsty again and again. Anyone who drinks the water I give will never thirst—not ever. The water I give will be an artesian spring within, gushing fountains of endless life."

15The woman said, "Sir, give me this water so I won't ever get thirsty, won't ever have to come back to this well again!"


I encourage you read all of John 4.


Like Jesus, we need to acknowlegde that everyone needs Christ. If you are black, do not just witness to the just black people. If you are white, don't limit your self to just white people. Witness to everyone. Everyone needs a good word. Until next time...

Nagging Women

I was reflecting the other day about what kind of wife I would be. With my goals and ambitions, I'm not sure if I'd make for a good companion at this time, however, I still like to wonder if I had to set the whole entertainment industry, and my main job was to be a wife, would i be good at it? In my studies this morning I read about how its better to live very uncomfortable than to live with a nagging woman. I believe that is so true. Its nothing worse than being around a person let alone a woman who is nagging and talks too much. I never want to be her.

Proverbs 25:24
24 Better to live alone in a tumbledown shack than share a mansion with a nagging spouse.

I have had friends that were nagging woman. The never could stay in a relationship. It was if they just found things to be upset about. I remember one of my friends had a falling out with her man just becasue she did not like a shirt he bought. Instead of just accepting the shirt, she made a big deal out of it and ended up alone. He left after that and never returned, he didn't even want to work things out.
Things like this make me re-examine my self. The sure sign of a woman who may be a nagger is she already stirs up trouble with her friends. She talks about people behind thier back, she fights a lot, and she never has a kind word. The bible tells us to stay clear of this type of woman. I am not saying that I am the great propect for marraige, but I am trying to get right. And one thing I am not, I am not a nagging woman. Until next time...

Case of the Fake People

We all know that it is very hard to know who is for you and who is against you. Some people make it clear not to depend of them if things go wrong, but then there are those who walk, talk, behave, smell, and just down right appear that they are going to have your back. Yet, when things start going wrong, they are no where to be found. Either that, or they become undependable and let you down. The Bible speaks on these types of people.

Proverbs 25:19 (AMP): Confidence in an unfaithful man in time of trouble is like a broken tooth or a foot out of joint.

If you put your trust and hopes in a person that is undependable in a time of trouble, in the end it is going to cause a lot of pain. I recall many times my feelings getting hurt due to me trusting a friend that I knew was suspect. This particular person did not have a relationship with God and could careless about "keeping your word", or "following through" or "being a blessing for others". I loan this person money numerous times and it came to a point when I really needed it back. I didn't even need all of it, just a certain amount. I didn't have a back up plan, I just depended on that person to come through like they said they would. When it came time for payout, they didn't answer their phone, nor did they come around. I didn't hear from this person anymore. That was hard for me to swallow. Yet I learned from that.

Put your confidence in God and make sure the people around you are on the same page you are. Make sure they are just as faithful to God as you are. When things get ugly, your faith will be in God and you will have faithful friends who will have your back. Until next time...

Who Is Your Guide

I didn't want to interject such a plug, but my mixtape comes out today. I woke up feeling nervous and a bit of anxiety. No one really knows what I been through and the faith it took to get this project completed. There were nights when I felt like I just wasn't going to make it. There were days when I wanted to give up and do something else. Nevertheless, I kept going. I kept going because I know a long time ago I asked God to use me and to bless whatever I lay my hands on. I asked Him to guide me in the direction in which I should go with my whole career. Since I let Him be my guide (and I stop doing things on my own), things have been falling in place for me.
I come to the conclusion that if I let God guide me this far, I need to continue following. Some people make it to a certain point in their lives and turn to God and say "I got it from here". Many times people go to God for part time help, and a lot of times that is what they get. You hear so many stories of people making it to the top and then falling off. I learned that I cannot do any of what I have accomplished without the Lord. I'd probably still be walking in circles wondering what do I do next if I didn't allow the Lord to guide me.
I leave you with the one scripture that is getting me through this time in my life.

Psalm 23

A David Psalm

^{1 -3} God, my shepherd! I don't need a thing.
You have bedded me down in lush meadows,
you find me quiet pools to drink from.
True to your word,
you let me catch my breath
and send me in the right direction.

⁴ Even when the way goes through
Death Valley,
I'm not afraid
when you walk at my side.
Your trusty shepherd's crook
makes me feel secure.

⁵ You serve me a six-course dinner
right in front of my enemies.
You revive my drooping head;
my cup brims with blessing.

⁶ Your beauty and love chase after me
every day of my life.
I'm back home in the house of God
for the rest of my life.

Until Next time...